Erin's First Thoughts: What do I want to feel? What quality of life do I want?

In five years I will be 42. The boys will be almost eight, and probably in 2nd grade. Eric and I will remain in a loving relationship, happy and laughing. We are entertaining with music, feasts, art, play... Celebrating a diverse, creative, compassionate, fun community. I am bring people of diverse backgrounds together. We hike regularly, adventure locally, and take camping trips often. I have time for writing and meditating. I strong and healthy, exercising and moving regularly in a way that brings me joy (I just want to dance). I feel connected to my community (ideally a 30-45 minute walk from our property is a little village/town). I hear birds and animals, on a piece of property that is tucked away and feels enveloped by nature. I am making art/crafts/cooking/building. I walk a lot with my dog(s), kids, and family. We have enough money to vacation, buy art, cloth ourselves, eat well, save for college, etc... I feel appreciated and significant. I have enough time to cook quality meals, keep a clean home, and a cared-for garden. I have lots of time to play/hang-out with kids. Life feels balanced. I feel centered, grounded, belonging, spirit-centered.  I am helping other live authentic, joyful, centered and mindful lives. I feel safe. I have time and space to hear/listen to my inner voice.
When I think of living on the land, I hope for homegrown food, chickens, goats, bees (?). I dream of hills and a stream.  I would love to host events like a retreat center (many ideas there: yoga, tarot, tiny-house building workshop). I dream of a property that would bring in income through rentals (barn for weddings?), CSA (grow food), forestry (a well-wooded land). The land I hope for is no more than 2.5 hours from a metropolis/airport. Ideally the community in the town is liberal, artistic, even touristy (a market we can tap into).